Two weeks ago, we celebrated Everly’s first birthday. We celebrated one year of being parents and frankly, we celebrated the fact that we kept our little bundle of joy alive!
If you don’t know already, Ethan and I rode the fast track to parenthood. We met online in January 2017 and found out we were almost two months pregnant over Memorial Day Weekend that May. We welcomed our baby Everly January 2018 and have had quite the adventure this past year. I left my job at CHOP to accept an amazing position on the postpartum unit at the Hospital of the University of Pennsylvania and I left my job at Lankenau to focus on being a mom as well as dedicate more time to my private practice and graduate school. Ethan “made rank” and will “put on his stripes” as a Technical Sergeant in the United States Air Force in a few months and will be deploying twice over the next two years to hopefully set him up for a new, awesome job as well as eventually become a Master Sergeant! Basically, on top of owning our new names of mom and dad, we have also continued our Power Couple status (no big deal!).
Everly’s birthday party wasn’t just a birthday party. It was a thank you to our entire village for wrapping their arms around us during such a joyful, exciting, but scary and stressful year! I couldn’t help but get super emotional (happy tears); my heart was and is just so full!
Her celebration was also a time for us to say see you later to Ethan because last weekend, which feels like an eternity ago, he left for his first of two deployments over the next two years. It’s been just about two weeks since he left and I feel like half my soul is halfway across the world. We are such a team when we are together…navigating two full time jobs, a business, a baby, cooking, cleaning, groceries, daycare…I feel like we are one well-oiled machine. So now, I feel like it’s all up to me.
Luckily we have that village I talked about earlier, who has checked in, visited, offered help, and given words of encouragement. I know they are there if/when I need them. We have also been blessed with an amazing nanny who has already brought Everly so much joy and love when mommy is at work.
I don’t think I’ve let myself feel how I really feel about having my best friend and partner in crime missing from his side of the bed but when I do, I’ll be sure to share them (tears and all).
For now, all I can say is Happy 1st Birthday to my sweet Everly Annamae. And to anyone who needs to hear it, it’s completely okay to ask for help, cry when you need to, and Marie-Kondo your entire apartment to keep your mind busy. But don’t be afraid to feel all your feels, sit on the kitchen floor and eat ice cream while crying, and slather yourself in all the happy essential oils you need to get through hard times.