This time last year I was pregnant with this beautiful miracle baby but keeping it a secret until I hit that 20 weeks gestation mark.
Part of me still needed time to realize that this baby was truly growing inside of me. ⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀
And part of me was still trying to find the right words...an explanation??...to announce Ethan and I were expecting.
Guys...we met online in January 2017, had our first date in March 2017, found out we were pregnant in May 2017, and celebrated our one year anniversary of dating while taking care of our 3 month old daughter this past March. ⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀
I found out I was pregnant with the nexplanon in my arm. Long story short I was pregnant when I got the nexplanon in but wasn’t pregnant enough for my urine to be positive prior to insertion. I was for sure the talk of my OB’s office for weeks!
A day doesn’t go by that I don’t think about the day I went in to confirm I was pregnant and we thought about not keeping her. It makes me feel sad, ashamed, sick to think that the thought was even in our minds because just look at her....she’s such a blessing, a miracle. ⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀
She has taught me so much. The truth about nipple pain, childbirth + sleepless nights.
I realize that I’m not the first or the last mom to go through the hard days. This has taught me to be gracious when I don’t make it home in time for bedtime or forget to make a batch of baby food for daycare.⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀
I also realize I’m not the only person who’s had an unexpected pregnancy nor will I be the last. And I’d like to think Ethan and I are freaking rocking this thing called parenting. ⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀
We learn new things about each other every day. And although I’m not as clean as he’d like me to be + he’s not as affectionate as I’d like him to be (love you babe ) it’s OK!
Being gracious as a mom, a partner, a business owner, a nurse, a lactation consultant...it’s not easy but so important. We can’t do it all perfectly but all we can do is try. ⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀
So here’s to being gracious, forgiving, + faithful in everything you do. Lean on your village for support because we can’t do it alone.